An Open Letter ...

In the past year you have said many things that were hurtful and rude. You disguise this by saying you want to always be honest. You have hurt your children with your words and you see nothing wrong with your actions. Many of your messages to me are a confusing, jumbled mess of nonsense. To you, they make perfect sense. You have said inappropriate things to me and other family members. You don’t acknowledge your faults…ever. You say you are always honest, but when it comes down to it, you’re not being honest. Not with you, and certainly not with others. You are pushing people away that care and causing much concern. You have made unwise choices, which got you beat up. You say that you’re a genius. Ok. Geniuses would know to check and make sure the girl you’re meeting up with is single. Geniuses don’t choose alcohol over their family. Geniuses don’t refer to themselves as God like.

It’s awesome that you have faith in God. I applaud that. However, when you choose to use the bible as a tool to beat people up with, you’re no better than the Pharisees in the bible. Look it up.

Your unwillingness to answer a question open and honestly implies you are lying; If not to the question-asker, then definitely to yourself. You twist messages and replies to suit your needs, showing yourself that of course you are the only one who is right and everyone else is out to get you.

You say you don’t need AA and that I must. While I might enjoy an occasional beer, I have not lost contact with my children, family or friends because of it. I haven’t been beat up because of it. It does not rule my life. I’m afraid it does rule yours. If not alcohol, something. Something is ruling your life and it isn’t you. You laugh when I tell you I hope you find your bottom soon. I just hope that your bottom isn’t as bad as others’.  I’m not sure what it will take for you to understand you have a problem. I know me telling you won’t help. You don’t hear it. You believe AA is from the devil. Interesting … since the basic prayer for AA is the serenity prayer:

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

I hope that one day you decide to look beyond yourself. Here are the questions to ask yourself: http://www.aa.org/lang/en/subpage.cfm?page=71

I love you but I can’t stand to be berated anymore.  No, I won’t stand for it. I hope that you figure it out soon before you lose the ones you love. This is not just affecting you.

Sincerely,

Your cousin.